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Apr. 19th, 2006 @ 08:02 pm YAY!!!
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: The Spill Canvas - Caterpillars
It's almost summer time!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!

That's all I wanted to say.

Wow....I haven't written in a long time....
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Feb. 10th, 2006 @ 08:51 pm FUCKING BITCHES!!
Current Mood: refreshedrefreshed
Current Music: Smile Empty Soul - Bottom Of A Bottle
So my and Kasia's suite mates....yea fucking whores. So here's the story:

Last night, Kasia and I decided to have a little get together in the room. We were gonna play beer pong ya know, have some fun. But where in the world are we supposed to get a beer pong table? Ah HA! The bathroom door its perfect. We asked the suite mates if we could take the door down, and even told them that they should come over and play if they wanted. They said it was totally cool, no problems whatsoever. Me and Kasia are thinking this is like really super awesome.
So after I get out of work, at around 11:45, I get to the room and its me, Kasia, Dan, Anthony, Josh, Zach (his room mate), Sesi and Stu (2 of Joshs friends). We're having a good time, Kasia and I beat every guy there (I had to point that out)! Granted, yes we did let a little loud at certain times, but we tried to keep it down, and no one came to complain.
So where's the problem? Here it is:
At about 1 this afternoon, the hall manager comes to our room, not because of the noise of the alcohol (he didnt know about the alcohol), but because our SUITE MATES complained that the door was off!!! WHAT THE FUCK!?!?!?!? So me and Kasia are sitting there trying to think of excuses on why our door was off, and he gave us an hour to get the door back on. Talk about embarrassing. And those bitches were the reason for it! They didn't even come talk to us about it!! THEY KNEW WE WERE TAKING THE DOOR OFF! And instead of going to the RA, or someone a little less important, they go to the fucking HALL MANAGER!! I don't know how much trouble Kasia and I could have gotten into had we not had everything cleaned up. All because those fucking bitches were whiney ass babies and ran down to Mr. Big Boss Man and told on us. I mean, c'mon, who really tells on people anymore??? Seriously, and then they sit in their room and talk about us while we can hear right through the door. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I was so pissed. But we got the door back on and no one said anything else to us. But oh man, it's totally one with these bitches!

Other than that, it's been going pretty good. Duda and I worked some stuff out, which I really needed. So I think we're gonna be ok, I was just in a bad spot and didn't know how to deal.

Going to a party tonight @ Dovers..that should be fun. The Halloween party there was pretty fun, so I'm excited! And then tomorrow is the "Fuck Relationships/Anti-Valentines Day" party at the Alpha Sig House. I really can't wait for that one, cause honestly, whose more bitter about relationships than me?? Can't think of someone off the top of your head can you? Didn't think so, and if you did, its all childs play. =)

Wow, I actually sat down and wrote a whole journal entry. Havent dont that in a while...but yea I think Im done now!

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Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 10:21 pm Let's Hear It For The Encore...
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
Current Music: Switchfoot - You
So ya know how awhile ago I was writing about how I had friends that didnt care? Well lets just say nothing has changed. The majority of my friends dont give a shit about my feelings. Need another example? Well who am i to disappoint?

Me: yea im just really pissed
Me: about everything
Friend: like what?
Me: just, everything, i dunno, i just....im just not happy
Friend: me too
Me: and its so weird bc nothing specific happened to make me unhappy
Me: its just a gradual thing, and some self realizations that just...i dunno
Friend: yeah i don't know how I feel anymore
Friend: more often than not I keep feeling numb
Me: yea
Friend: and I've been really stressed lately
Friend: and doing things I wouldn't usually like smoking...a lot
Me: right

See? There ya go. I hardly ever open up to other people, and when I do, they turn it around and use it as an opportunity to talk about themselves....awesome.
But at least these are the friends I still talk to...there are some i havent even talked to in what seems like forever. i always thought that no matter what happened, and even though we were at college, we would still make our friendship work. obviously some people are too busy....they dont even know anything about me anymore....and i certainly dont know them...

But i cant count out all my friends....there are still some that are there for me when i need them, and i would just like to say thank you =)

k im done bitching now

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Jan. 18th, 2006 @ 10:35 pm It's The Dawson
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: O.A.R - Love and Memories
I haven't updated in awhile.

How does that make you feel?

It makes me feel busy.

Guess what??

I'm still busy!!

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Jan. 8th, 2006 @ 11:15 pm First Entry of the year
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Foo Fighters - Times Like These
So yea, I haven't written in a looong time. And I could probably sit here for like 45 minutes telling everyone every little detail of my Christmas break, but thats boring, no one really cares, and the people who do were there anyway, so oh well.

In sum:

Worked at Portofino, that sucked but it was easy money.
Had Christmas at my grandmas...that was cool...i guess.
Christmas at home was good....kicked major ass in pool.
Hung out with lots of friends, I was out almost every night.
New Years Eve....oh man, wasted...good times though.
Good times with hookah.
Saw Hostel...it's FUCKED UP!
Kegger at Patricks...craziness.
Went clubbing a few times @ Tiki Bobs.
Whooped some major ass at beer pong, every night that I played!
Did stupid stuff I probably shouldn't have but oh well...im over it.

So yea...I think thats it..nothing else really crazy or oh so interesting to point out.

So goodnight! =)

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Dec. 24th, 2005 @ 12:33 pm Merry Merry!!
Current Mood: jubilantjubilant
Current Music: N'Sync - Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays

So yea, I'm sure there's a lot I could talk about, and it would mostly be about *Mike* =) but I'm gonna save you all that nonsense and just say:




<3 Steph

P.S. I think I'm head over heels.....;)

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Current Mood: embarrassedembarrassed
Current Music: Ashlee Simpson - Say Goodbye
Don't ever throw yourself out there.....cause do you know what's out there?? Neither do I, but I bet it's really scary!!

Plus, once you have thrown yourself...you get pissed cause you're like, "Why the hell did I just throw myself?" I'm telling ya....baby steps!!

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Dec. 10th, 2005 @ 08:18 pm So Fucking Sick Of This
Current Mood: sadsad and hurt
Current Music: Pillar of Autumn - New Beginning
Ok, so it's not just one friend anymore who doesn't want to listen to my problems...it's like most of them. I'm not going to use names, but here is a perfect example of what I'm talking about:

"Friend": so you never called me back...yea real cool
ME: well the guys didnt leave until about 4:30 this morning
"Friend": i was up till 630
ME: you were having fun you wouldnt have wanted to talked to me anyway, i was crying and what not
"Friend": yea i was DRUNK im not gonna lie
"Friend": well i need to talk to you
ME: about what?
"Friend": my dumbass

See? If my friend told me they had been crying, I definitely think I would ask them what was wrong. But it seems like everyone has to make it about themselves...and I'm so fucking sick of that. I'm sick and tired of being the person who is there, and not have anyone give a shit about me. Something really bad happened last night, I was betrayed by a friend and by my ex boyfriend, someone I still cared a lot about. I was fucking called every name in the book by him, and he humiliated me in front of our friends. I was devastated last night, and I tried to call my 2 best friends, and neither of them answer their phones....because they are too drunk to understand what's going on, and then when one calls back, as soon as I tell her that I was all upset and just needed someone to talk to, she says she has to tell me a crazy story about her night, without asking me if I was ok, or asking me to tell her what happened....WTF?! Does anyone see something wrong with this picture??? It just sucks that when I need someone the most.....no one is there for me....I give up...
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Dec. 10th, 2005 @ 03:35 pm Wow...
Current Mood: disappointeddisappointed
So I'm pretty sure that last night was one of the worst nights of my life. I was hurt so badly by people I didn't think were capable of it. Just baffles my mind is all....

Luckily, I have some great friends who came over and helped me through it and made everything ok again. It's good to know there are people on my side...but to be honest, after this...I'm going to have to be a lot more careful with who I trust....

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Dec. 9th, 2005 @ 08:36 am Ahh, the Good Ol' Days
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
So yea, I'm pretty sure that there are some days when I wanna be back in high school. Southgate definitely had a snow day today, and on a Friday too, that's the best day to have snow days!! Grrrr

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to put on all my winter gear and walk about 15 minutes in the freezing cold to go to my 50 minute class....why? Because I'm a college kid. Wooo hoo for MSU and not having a snow day since the 70's!! Bah humbug is what I say!!

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